2002-05-17 - 12:19 a.m.
Everything with Kai and Rita is okay now. We "made up," especially Rita and I. We ran and jumped on each other today when we saw each other, and then got all teary-eyed cuz we're stupid emotional girls. BUT, that doesn't mean I forgot what happened- it just means I'll be more careful with what I tell them from now on.
EWW, today Booth started talking about "famous people" and actors. I guess Bono was on the front page of the Mercury News with the Secretary of Shit, or something, and that made him angry. He said, "What is so special about celebrities? Why are they into politics now, and we follow what they say?" He really pisses me off sometimes, so I actually spoke back today. I said, "Celebrities are famous because WE make them famous. They have an audience, and are well known for a reason- be it their talent, looks, mind, or whatever. We also love knocking them off the pedestals we put them on, which is unfair. Their actions are magnified a million times only because they are constantly in the public's eye, and America (especially) tends to focus on anything negative over positive. Maybe Bono had something positive to say, and by him being a celebrity, it is easier for him to reach a large amount of people because he is so well known and influential." DUH. I hate it when people look at celebrities and make stupid and quick judgments. They forget that they are people as well, just as normal as you and I. And I know his comment was geared towards me- he doesn't like me at all, and it pissed him off when I had to leave for my acting thing in Vegas. Well, too bad. My future is more important than the shit he feeds into my head. Really lame.
Lol, Rickey's hella funny. He just said this to me: "i cant have a job and a girlfriend...i feel like im cheating on my job.... i dont think im ever going to be married shell.... i dont know how to date.... i feel like i need to get with every girl i start to see.... then i get to this stage where i want to get rid of them and get a new one and the whole process starts over." Poor thing. Lol. He doesn't want to get married, either. I think it's cuz we're related. The younger generation is "anti-marriage" or some shit. Ok, well not really. Actually, I think just me, Rickey, and Lee are. Well, Lee is a whole different story. He's clinically insane, which also runs in the family. For me, on both sides. Ha! But anyhow, Rickey and I bond a lot in they way we look at life. We give each other advice a lot. He's just heading in a really good direction. He's done anything and everything unconventionally- graduated high school, but struggling the entire way, tried college THREE times, but nothing worked out, and finally, got his broker's license about a month ago (but was working without one for six months), and has accomplished SO much, it's incredible. I can easily say that he is the most successful person in the family. -And I've always said he would be. Even compared to my Uncle who immigrated to America in his 30's and opened up his own glassblowing company. He has like 6 mansions in California, I can't even name how many cars, and I'm guessing a good 100 mill at LEAST in the bank. He ordered two custom designed Mercedes 2 years ago- each about $150,000, and for what? To impress who? I mean, that's wonderful and all- if you can afford it and want it- good for you, but he also cut everyone's pay at the shop 20% to buy his new mansions. That's a shame. And his employees are all poor Vietnamese and Philipino men who can't afford much to begin with, and have to raise their families with nearly nothing. Yet my Uncle can sit in the glory of his many mansions and custom made cars. Nice. But I don't call that "successful." I call it "selfish."
Vivian asked me today, "So how's the modeling going?" Lol, I laughed. "You mean the acting," I said. It amuses me how people confuse modeling with acting. First of all, ARE THEY BLIND? I am nowhere NEAR model material. Good god, what the hell? #2, How is modeling remotely similar to acting? In one, you model designer clothes down a runway. In the other, you change your personality and appearance to fit a character in a story, for an artistic project. I guess it's just another stereotype that a lot of people have about actors. That's okay though, I always get a laugh out of the "model" thing.
UGH! I just called my cell phone to check if I had any messages, and I swear to god I sound like I'm 6 on the phone. I hate it! When stupid sales people call my house and I answer, majority of the time they say, "Oh hello. Is your Mommy or Daddy there?" Oh my god, you idiot, I'm like 10 years older than you think, or for that matter, than I sound. lol. It's so sad. If they picture me older than 10, they probably assume I'm some little blonde teeny-bopper with perky tiny boobs, and a bubble butt. I think that's why I get asked out by the Mercury News sales guys. God, that's so embarassing. Well, I don't think there's anything I can do.
